I have always known that I am a bit off of normal. This does not bother me. I can given you so many examples of things that I want to do and learn.
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learn Japanese and Swedish.
I am fascinated by these languages. They don't have much to do with each other and yes, french would be more practical seeing I am living in Canada and all, but I really want to learn these ones. If there is some reason that must be given I would say I can understand Ikea instructions better and weird Japanese game/shows. No one said they have to be good reasons.
Learn to code games.
I really want to make a game all by my self from the sound to graphics. Now will the game be good... probably not ... but I don't care. I can say I made a "Roxy" game. I have so many ideas but the one that stands out the most is like a party game/ time waster where you can play common games like tic-tac-toe, rock paper scissors, Russian roulette and other games of that nature to get points that you can buy things for a avatar to make it look like what ever you want. Multi-player both online and local as well as AI. On computer, and android tablet/phones and DS. Ambitious yes, but who can say "I made a game" or even better "I made my game".
Learn to code games.
I will be the first to say that my English skills suck. Well I did make a word ..."Manoade"... don't ask me what it means I say it is mayonnaise with a hint of lemonade taste. My grammar could use a lot of work and spelling well lets just say spell check is my friend, one of my bestest friends. I am aware that is not a word... punctuation I have to work on to but that has gotten a bit better, still not going to win any awards.
Learn how to pole dance.
And no I don't want to strip at a club. If I did people would run away screaming bloody murder. This is not a statement to say I not beautiful, (if you let my phone talk it says I am), but to say that I am sexually appealing to a small subset of the male population. The reason I want to learn this is because as I was lurking on Youtube I was fascinated by some of the moves and how it look like you are defying the laws of gravity. like the rest of my list no one has to see or like it, because I don't want to learn this for some one else's enjoyment but my own.
Lose some weight.
This one is a little harder to explain. I am happy with my body. I don't want to be super skinny like a model, fit size X clothes or become more appealing to a larger subset of males. I am always fear full that people will think that I have self esteem issues or image problems when I don't. Trust me I will be the first to speak up when it comes to something I know and or care about. Its just when I close my eyes I see some one that looks a bit different, my inner self lets call it. I see the proportion the same, curvy-ish with less flabby arms, but just a bit smaller. If you can imagine more of a medium size. I just want my outer self to look more like my inner self. Also it would be nice to be more on the healthy side and be able to run and rock climb, but of course pole dance.
Be an extra in a movie.
I want to be one of the back round people in movies, I know they don't pay well but it is not for the money. I think it would be fun and exciting. No lines required.
Meet the internet celebrity's that I like.
I know that "internet celebritys" won't be on the cover people, but being able to me Robert Benfer, Jason Steele ( film cow) maybe Ashens would make my day, hell being able to talk to them via... anything would be awesome. I know a lot of people don't know anything about them or there work but I like them and that is what matters.
getting a Penta kill in league, in a normal game.
I have never gotten one, just because I play a bit does not mean I am good. It would be awesome to get a penta. From skills on my end of course not because the other side sucks. It is easy to get kills when the other player plays stupid. I want to earn it.
Beat hard bots on Star craft 2, by my self.
I can't beat normal on my own, I like the game it is fun but I would love to have more skills.
Own a home
Live in my own home, pay my own bills decorate how ever I want. A dream that could possibly come true one day.
My goals may not be all easy, or make sense to some people, but motivations even stranger but I have always known that I was not normal. I want to do these for me and not to please some one else. so I don't care what others may think. I am Roxy, I am not playing support Ashe.
