Meaning in everything.

I know this may sound like I an reading in to things that are not there but I have noticed that some things that stopped you dead in your tracks. Even thou your mind is busyed by other thoughts then all of a sodden there is a a jolt, if you call it that. were all you focus on  may be one or 2 lines of song you are listening to every day, or song that been along for a life time just seem to talk to you like it just came out moments ago or a line in TV show that just demands you attention.There are a few times were I can recall this happening to me.Lets start off with Andrianna Katlin Everett  other wise know as Andi.  A person robed from this world far to soon, I don't like talking about her. I cry all the time I think of her.  You can say her death hit me really hard.  Every one deal with death differently, I tend to withdraw a bit do some thing creative. I don't like crying in pubic much  when I am alone it hit.around this time there was a song on the radio by Shinedown called second chance  I don't know why but all the thoughts emitys from my mind as fast as they came. The lyric soaked in all I found my self balling like a baby. I can't tell you why the lyrics are happyish even in the song it says to not cry but today I can't help it. At around the same time anther song, one thing by finger eleven , that had been out forever caught my ear and just stopped me dead in my tracks.


"If I traded it all 
If I gave it all away for one thing
Just for one thingIf I sorted it out
If I knew all about this one thing Wouldn’t that be something"

The words hunted me.  If I heard the song before i would of thought it was good, but now it was amazing how the words meant so much more to me. Reading to far, may be, but it is hard to deny the power of the moment when no matter how hard you try to make the moment pass it makes fails.I like music, as you can tell. Some times I think the radio is talking to me. The songs that play convey a feeling that I am feeling or trying to tell me something. Something wants me to listen.  I know it sound crazy but it is true.I think my mind works this way too. When my Uma was dying there was a song the ran through, voodoo by Godsmack 

"I'm not the one who's so far away
When I feel the snake bite enter my veins
Never did I wanna be here again
And I don't remember why I came"

over and over, as if my mind was trying to coo it self. At the time i could not think of anything else.  Just "I'm not the one who's so far away,When I feel the snake bite enter my veins, Never did I wanna be here again, And I don't remember why I came" . I guess you could say it was my Uma but I don't think it was. It was some time later that I was watching Anderson copper  and he had the long island medium  I was not paying much attrition to it because I was getting ready for work  and all of a sudden one line just filled my mind, clearing all other thoughts. The exact word escape me now but I think it went along the lines of the spirits try to communicate but making you turn on the radio so a song comes on or little things things that we take for granted.